Oh Winter...I loath you...

Its official...summer is on its way out and fall is following closely. That means two things...I'm going to lose what little tan I have, and winter is right around the corner!

I'm sad that summer is over, mainly because I have grown to despise winter. I'm not really sure why I hate it so much, but this year I'm truly dreading it. I've been thinking about this a lot, because it's not like I have any control over whether or not Winter comes or goes, and it's not like it's something new. It's consistent...

God is sort of the same. He's consistent. I'm not saying that I despise God, but I do have my moments when I throw huge fits because I don't like the season of life God has me in. Hmm...maybe that's it...I feel like my life is in winter...dormant...and I'm ready for something new, with color and warmth, but I can't because I have no control over that. Only God does and if I'm being honest, I'm not content with that.

I think this is a lesson I will always be in class for. I'm consistently discontent, and I have a hard time enjoying the "winter" I'm in and God is always reminding me to enjoy the moment, because I'll never get it back. I'll never gain a minute back, and I could miss out on what God is doing right now. I heard a saying the other day, "You're so used to losing, that you can't even tell when you're winning!" What if God is doing something right now in this winter? What if, what I think is winter, is really my summer? Could I possibly be that blind? Yes...I think I'm that selfish and that big of a baby that it could affect my line of vision.

I need to learn to enjoy the beauty of snow and the cool crispness of the winter air. I mean there are only certain things you can do during winter that you can't in spring or summer, like sledding and snowball fights. So if you're like me...I encourage you to focus on God during this time and rest in Him. He'll get you to your spring or summer, and if we learn to enjoy it, then maybe it won't seem so long.