A New Chapter

Tomorrow a whole new chapter in my life starts. It’s fitting considering that it’s the end of the year. It’s a fresh start, a place where no one knows who I am or what I’m like. That’s a little unnerving because of what people have said in the past about me, even though I know that those are just lies. All I want to do is put my best foot forward and be a blessing to these people. The last couple of months have been interesting. Not just for me either. What I’ve known ever since I was 18 years old, all the people that I loved and trusted, have gone and proven otherwise (the word “all” is a bit of an exaggeration, but 95% of the people).I am now having to rebuild my world so to speak. Well God is. It’s exciting and I am anxious. I’m meeting new people, attending a new church and I think renewing my faith in God. I’ve been very honest about my relationship with God. It’s been rocky and distrustful (on my part of course). Trusting is not something that is easy for me to do anyways, and with God it’s really weird. I trust Him in more ways than others. My hope is very small at times I’d say. Believing one moment that God will do what He said and the next moment my every wandering heart takes a new stance. I think it’s hard to trust Him because I feel like my heart is in a constant broken state and has a deep wound that I feel He can fix. Anyways, my point in all that is I’m hoping that in this new chapter that my faith in God will renew and be better than it was when I first believed. I hope that I will meet people to help heal my heart and help me to forgive the past and help me move forward. So here’s to a new chapter and new possibilities!